A raw exploration of identity that shatters boundaries and explodes the way we think about the idea of the self.

‘Unlike anything I’ve read . . . Remarkable.’ – Roxane Gay

‘An audacious sojourn through the terror and beauty of refusing to explain yourself. ‘ – New York Times

In letters addressed to their friends, to members of their family – both biological and chosen – and to fellow storytellers, Akwaeke describes the shape of a life lived in overlapping realities. Through heartbreak, chronic pain, intimacy with death, becoming a beast, this is embodiment as a nonhuman: outside the boundaries imposed by expectations and legibility. This book is an account of the grueling work of realignment and remaking necessary to carve out a future for oneself.

The result is a Black spirit memoir: a powerful, raw unfolding of identity.